Pada Allah lah jua tempat kita mengadu…


Sakit sangat perutku…

Rasa mencakar-cakar dari dalam…bila dibaca ayatul kursi dan ruqyah, reda kejap…lepas tu datang lagi rasa cakaran bertalu-talu…

Ada masa sakit tu berlalu, tapi bila dia datang nak cakap macam mana pun aku tak tahu…

Kalau ikutkan hati, nak saja hubungi orang itu dan merayu..

Supaya dia tak hantar hantu mengacau aku…

Tapi…bila difikir-fikirkan, hanya Allah lah selayaknya tempat mengadu…

Tiada yang lebih berkuasa melainkan Allah yang satu..

Ya Allah, maafkanlah aku 😦


Staying connected…

I’m staring at my laptop trying to come up with words to produce my long due report and yet nothing comes to mind.

It should not have been that hard since part of the report is based on factual data, all I need to do is connect it with one another and boom – the words should be filling up on its own.

And yet…

Here I am, writing a post here instead. The daily prompt totally summarized the verb that I need to be doing today – staying connected.

My brains runs multiple thinking at times and getting it to focus is a real challenge. Even the slightest text message or noise can splatter all the ideas away. But once it gets connected, I can say that it delivers a pretty awesome job.

p/s: I think I should be disconnected with the internet to get things done – ciao~

Welcoming Ramadhan al-Kareem~

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This year I made a simple goal for Ramadhan.

  • Make sure that Mr. Hubs and me pray Fajr together or at the Mosque.
  • Healthy food intake.
  • Recite Quran everyday.
  • and be happy 🙂

It’s not that we’re not happy any other month, but sometimes in Ramadhan…I tend to set impossible goals and stressed out over it.

May Allah ease our journey and have a blessed Ramadhan~


Post Holiday Rants ^.^

I took a day off to rest from work. I cannot believe that I have jetlag eventhough I’ve taken precaution by staying hydrated, sleeping in the flight (soundly, and hopefully not snoringly) and adjusted my sleep schedule a few days before the flight back.

Had a very interesting exploration of Europe’s in the 10 days 9 nights trip. Managed to experience England (Brighton, Wiltshire, London, Berkshire and Bicester), took the ferry from Dover to Calais, France and drove straight to Netherland (Amsterdam & Zaanse Schans), took a quick tour in Belgium (bought some delicious Belgium Chocolate, and visited the City Mosque) and finally back to France to visit the city of love Paris 🙂

Met some new interesting characters in the trip and hopefully made friends with them.

I was hoping to be able to scratch Europe of my bucket list, but honestly, this trip only makes me want to go back to Europe and do the things we missed.

Although the trip was great and could’ve have more room for improvements, travelling with my family can be a challenging factor for me as even in day to day basis, we don’t really understand each other. Some actions taken by each party may be resented by the others – hence creating some tension in the trip. I tried to suppressed the anger and frustration, but somehow it may have blown up towards Mr. Hubs on our final day there and created more tension to the trip. But like most of our fight, we usually reconcile 30 minutes after. The audience of the drama may not understand the whole situation, hopefully no actual damage is done.


My brother had the same feeling about the trip and he suggested that this may be the last family trip that he will ever join again. That broke my heart! I do hope he will grow out of it some day and came to realized that although we may not always think alike all the time, love and respect should thrive above all else.

My dad paid for my flight tickets for this trip, and it could not have happen without them and I am totally grateful for that. I love my parents, and I do care of their well being… but they drive me crazy sometimes.

I do hope my parents realized it too. Being a parent doesn’t mean that you are always right – you too should show the love and respect that you request from your kids. Especially when they are adults.

Holidays are meant to bring people closer by spending precious time with each other, but this Europe trip – as fun as it may be, may have broken off the family even further.

I do hope that time will heal and we will someday look forward again to a nice family vacation together 🙂


Finally, I have some me time 🙂

Have been busy surrounding myself with people and project write ups that I was not able to write in here.

So many ideas have come to mind since the last time I wrote and god knows how many time have I open the site and did not get to push the new post button before I get call upon or had to do other chores.

I even had to skip my lunch date with my girlfriends on 1st April due to the urgent request to submit a proposal paper for the Management.

Part of it was my fault I guess, I should have been able to anticipate the requests and at least not procrastinate the necessary analysis required for the proposal. I was too overwhelmed with data that I to digest that I decide to put it at the back of my head until it was force to come out.

Anyway, April is also a busy month as I need to complete a ton of stuff before the Europe trip. Can’t wait to enjoy exploring London, Amsterdam and Paris, and scratch Europe off my bucket list 🙂

A year older, and wiser?

I celebrated my 34th birthday a few days ago.

Wanted to write down the eventful day but unfortunately I came down with fever and am still recovering from it.




I learned that with age:

  1. I am much calmer these days and less eager to take on an argument even thought I know I’m right! I am not known to stand down during a fight.
  2. I am also better at ignoring negative comments and not taking anything to heart. My heart is too precious to let anything hurt it.
  3. I am more careful with my expenditure and more content with just spending time at home instead of the mall/beach/events.

Age does makes you wiser! (if you let it)

I watched The Little Prince yesterday, and it reminds me that we sometime get too caught up with the day to day routine and the rat race to achieve some physical things in life that we forget to feed the inner child in us which makes us feel alive most of the time.

Don’t forget to live your life!





I’ve been blogging since 2000, but that hobby has been “on-hold” for the last couple of years.

I love blogging – it helps keep my mind moving while at the same time helped to sort my memories and thoughts better. I’ve also made some new friends along the way…

Since I like to keep the most of my life a secret, I find blogging anonymously lets me write my mind more freely.

Everytime I move into a new phase in life, I usually change my blogging platform. This helps me start over without having to worry the past stories to resurfaced *hopefully* and without having to commit to the old style of writing.

The problem with starting over, is to get started!

I often contemplate on what and how to write, the ideas kept coming all at the wrong time and I kept doubting myself.

Today, I’ve learnt a new secret…Wordpress helps you generate the ideas through daily prompts. I wished I had found it sooner. Its a good place to kick start my blog again.

Maybe everyday is a far fetch goal for me right now, but I do hope to write more in here.